My Life

10:21pm: WTF?!
This is hella more weird than his last muffin video.

1:23am: I'm happy.
I saw Ashlee today. w00t w00t

Sean and I went over to her house. We chilled for a while, went to eat, went back to her house to get jackets, went to the park and chilled, then went back and watched tv and stuff.

Tomorrow Sean and I are going job hunting.

5:19pm: D&D
MAN. I'm going to play Dungeons and Dragons for the first time. I'm hecka excited. I feel like a nerd. :)



I'm bummed cause I can't see Stars Are Falling @ The Rock church.
:/





yeeeeee

11:56pm: yesssss
I'm happy that I FINALLY changed my gross picture.

:)

11:03pm: Today was nice.
Today my mom gave me 2 dollars to give to my sister Chloe for lunch (she always walks to school *weeeeeeeeirdo* so my mom didn't have a chance to give her the money), buuuuuuuuuuut dummy me forgot to give it to her and I didn't realise it until the end of 5th period (that's when she has her lunch). So after I was done working(serving the teachers)I told the ladies what happened and they were like "just bring her a tray...you don't have to pay." So I brought the tray of food to the office and they had her eat her lunch in the office. :) But I still felt bad because I asked her "Did you eat any lunch?" and she said "I had just a couple cheese-its" and I like died. I don't know...it might not look like a big deal, but to me it totally was because Chloe isn't the kind of person that will ask someone for money because she's way shy. BUT, at least she got her food. :)

Then after school I took the bus to see my Seanie. When I got on I looked through my pockets for the 2 1's...but they weren't there, so I was freaking out because I only had a 5 and a 10. The bus driver and me are cool so he just let me get on.

When we got to Crows Landing an old couple came on with this cubby, about 5 year old, mexican boy. Before he got on the bus I smiled at him. When he got on I smiled again. Then when he and his...whatever they were to him...got off he hecka smiled at me and waved. Now THAT made my day.

Then I saw SEAN! We basically did nothing. Watched tv...and then some of the opening ceremony of the Olympics.



Well, night for now.

12:00am: yeea
This weekend has been good so far.

I went to Half Moon Bay yesterday with Sean's family (except Elizabeth) and spent the night on the boat. Today we walked down Main Street in Half Moon Bay. I fell in LOVE with this one store called Rouge....but it's like waaaaaaaay expensive! They had some other way cool shops too. I want to go back down to main street.

After we got back we watched Red Eye. I thought it was going to be dumb...but I got into it. I was like "OMG OMG...WHERE DID HE GO?" *pause* "HE'S IN THE SHOWER!!! HE'S IN THE SHOWER!!!!!!!!!" haha and Sean just laughed @ me. :( haha

Then I saw Chris with some people at Savemart and I'm almost positive that they were buying alcohol(sp?). bleh I wonder if Brittni knows. *sighs*



I'm excited for the Superbowel tomorrow. My aunt Vicky and family are coming down with my grandparents. YEEEEEEEE I get really excited when I see family...other people are usually like "ick...I have to visit family", but I get really happy. Sean's coming down too. I'm going for the Steelers. Ick...I hate going for the favored team. :( But I want them to win so...whatever.

Well, I'm gonna go check out the new post on Post Secret.

Peace Out.

1:55am: yeeee
I worked everything out with Ashlee. It turns out she has a really bad case of Mono. :( I feel like a bitch.


It's nice to have someone to talk to about things that you wouldn't anyone else. I tell sean absolutly EVERYTHING...but I can get a different perspective with Ashlee and I can ask her things and she won't freak. I'll leave it at that.

10:20pm: My little rant cause I can't do it on MySpace without anyone complaining.
No one reads this anyway...it's just a way for me to vent.

That Clark Gable girl is a bitch.

Ashlee...I don't know if she is my friend anymore or if she even likes me anymore. She has time to respond to other people's comments and ask how other people are doing, but she CAN'T do that with me. What the fuck? Seriously.


My birthday is going to be shit because I can't spend it with friends. Jeff has to go hang out with his dad cause it's his frickin birthday too. Ever since my 16th b-day its' been crap. Well, ok 2 birthdays...but that's ok. The only thing that will make it good/amazing is Sean. I'd just like to have a few friends that would like to hang out with me...especially on my birthday and say "hey, lets do something for your birthday." *rolls eyes* But the only person that does that is Sean and I'm so greatful for that because he is my bestest friend. I'll probably get nothing like I did last year (from my parents). Last year I got an ugly ass frame that broke like 3 weeks later AND I had already seen it. I think it was just a thing where my mom "forgot" and gave that to me as a "omg, I forgot" kind of thing. Don't get me wrong...it's the thought that counts...but you should see how much my parents care about my siblings birthdays. They always get birthdays that are really cool, like going to Funworks or something and they always say "hey, what do you want for your birthday?" when they haven't even come close to asking me.


Well, Sean took me to go see Tristan and Isolde today for one of my birthday presents. It was really fun/good. After the movie we went to a Mexican place for dinner that was right next to Brenden theatre. The beans and rice were good but the enchiladas(sp?) had absolutly NO flavor. I was like "wtf? what happened?" But it was still cool. Then we went back to his house and ate the cheesecake that Sean's mom and I made. YUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMM!!!! Then we played Apples to Apples with his parents. Sean won... that jerk. :)

Tomorrow=nothing. Hopefully celebrating my birthday early so I can spend Sunday with amigos.



If you read this...I love you and I thank you for sitting through all that stupid stuff. :)

2:30pm: I'm the happiest that I can be.
Last night was absolutly AMAZING! No, Sean and I did not have sex. I'm not going to give away the details because that is for Sean and I to share and to have as our secret, just that Sean and I cuddled for an hour. I felt the most beautiful I ever have in my life. I felt the most loved that I ever have by Sean or anyone else. It was warm, comfortable, and...I can't find a word to describe how amazing it was.

I want to marry Sean. I really do. And I will.

Sean told me "I know I am going to marry you. I have absolutly no doubt in my mind about it."

9:21pm: hmmmm
I'm tired of my LJ looking like poo poo.

I wish I could be like...20 and marry Sean already.

I love learning and all that jazz, but I don't want to go to school. I need to get up early tomorrow so I can shower and be ready for school on time. *farts* Fart on that.

I went to the Brunswick last night. It was pretty pretty cool. Well, it was alright. I had to stay with Ashlee and talk to her outside cause she's having problems with Ryan. When she and I left and Sean left I realised that I really didn't spend that much time with him that day and I was like :/ . I went to his band practice where Mitchel came down so they could try him out. So yea. I didn't get much attention from Sean. I'm such an attention whore when it comes to Sean. I don't know...I could care less if I got attention from anyone else, but with Sean it's like...I neeeeed it. Not all the time, but a fairly good amount. *sighs*


I love that boy. *smiles*



Well, I'm gonna go eat and then curl up in my bed.

2:58am: Sean
Take some time to look through these and see how beautiful, awesome, happy, funny, and truly wonderful he is.
























He is soooooo wonderful. Our love is rare. Our love is unique. Our love for eachother is never ending. I'd do absolutly anything for him. If he had cancer I'd give him my hair so he could have some. If he needed a lung, I'd give him mine. If he needed a kidney transplant, I would give him mine. I would move anywhere for him. I would give up anything for him. If he needed me to drive him somewhere and it was 8 hours out of my way, I would do it in a heart beat. If it meant driving 2,000 miles to see him for just 5 minutes...I'd do it. If it meant that I had to walk across the country in order to see him, I would jump at the chance. I love taking care of him when he's sick. I love babying him. All I want to do is to take care of him the rest of my life. I want to make him soup when he's sick. I want to spend days with him where all we do is cuddle in bed. I want to cry on his shoulder when I'm sad about anything. I want to cook him dinner everynight. I want to give him anything that his heart desires. I want to change his diapers when he's an old man. I want to feel the warmth of his body when we cuddle and we're just about to fall asleep. I want to wake up to his face every morning. I want to play "Velociraptor" with him. I want to watch Disney movies with him. I want to lay in a hammock with him and just stare into his eyes forever. I want to sing him to sleep every night. If I had to save him from the Chinese mob, I would do it. I would jump in front of a bullet for him. I would die 1,000 deaths for this boy. The most amazing thing is, is that he would do every single one of these things for me. He has NOT stolen my heart. I have given it to him and he gave me his. I love him.
We are in love and NOTHING can break that wonderful bond that we have.


Sean Thomas Herrick Kelly
&
Scarlett Suzette McConnell
Forever

♥

10:36pm: The weekend has been wonderful.

Thursday Sean and I saw eachother and we opened our presents to eachother. I got him some cologne(sp?) from Hollister and he got me the cutest brown jacket from Forever 21.

Friday I went to Target with Ashlee and Derek. We then went to WalMart and then Ashlee started feeling sick because she didn't take her medication that was for her throat because she had just gotton her tonsils and some other gland removed...so she went home with her Aunt who just happened to be there. So, Derek and I went back to target and then to Jamba Juice (YUM). So as we were driving home Ashlee texted me and was like "let's go get ice cream....I feel better" so we picked up this other girl, Jessica, got Ashlee, and then got Sean in P-town. It turns out that we just went to Denny's. yesss! We dropped off Sean. Derek dropped off Jessica and then me and Ashlee at her house. Ashlee and I watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and Fever Pitch. I LOVED both of the movies. While we watched the movies, I got a good idea for another present for Sean. Anyway, I went home @ 2.

Saturday I had Christmas with my family because my dad had to work overtime today. I got some CUTE CUTE CUTE stuff. Then I made the little book of pictures of Sean and I.

Today I went to Sean's house and had a 2nd Christmas with his family. I had sooooooooooo much fun.




Merry Christmas everyone!

11:15am: Screw the subject.
hmmm Yesterday was really fun! I went to the mall with Ashlee and her cousin Vanessa. She was really nice. I just window shopped...but it was still fun. OOOOOOOO and they had a big MAC booth. I wish I had $$$$. Then we got back to Ashlee's and Nessa fixed up my eye make up. omg it looked good. Like after the AWESOME show we went to in and out, and as we were leaving Nessa took some pictures of me and with just that little bit more eyeshadow....I have become more photogenic(sp?).

That sounded kinda concieted(sp?), but it wasn't meant to be. I used to hate like EVERY single picture of me....but in those I liked them. It made me happy.



Now for the bad part.


It looks as though Tommy and/or some idiot messed with When That Day Dawn's MySpace. If you don't know who that is, it's my boyfriend Sean's band. They put all this mean crap about Sean on there and about the other guys....but mainly Sean. I don't know where they get off saying that Sean was "controlling" and stuff. I think this was all Tommy because Aaron and Sean BOTH said that Tommy was the controlling one in the band. Tommy was the previous drummer...just to let ya know. Oh, and another lame thing that this person did was give himself the alias of "The Joker". WTF?!?!?!is that? Are you too lame to own up to your actions? Are you too afraid of getting caught?

To see what they did go to www.myspace.com/whenthatdaydawns

*sighs*

I'm putting my mood as morose because I don't know what it means and it sounds cool.

1:09am: I just stayed up for a long time...resizing pictures.

I found out that I have a good program that's like a crappy version of Photoshop...but it does the work that I want it to. So it satisfies me.


Tomorrow....I mean today is Thanksgiving. I'm going to my Aunt's house up near Concord/Antioch and a lot of my family will be there...so I'm happy.

Then Saturday I'm going to go to KK with Ashlee and her cousin. *smiles*






Oh and I fell in love with a song that Michelle had on her MySpace "Like You Do" by sof. I hate Michelle. She gets me addicted to good music.

7:50pm: This is kinda late but yea.
Friday was an awesome night.

Me and Bria went to Gustine for the Gustine/Newman game. It was fun. I got to yell @ some of the football players, which makes me happy. We won the chief!!! Finally after 5 years of not having it. *smiles*

After the game my mom picked me up and dropped Bria off @ her house while I went home to do the dishes and get my stuff ready. Then @ about 11:30 I got to Bria's house and we played DDR from 12:00-3:00a.m. and then Super Marios Bros. until 5. That DDR was a frickin workout. Bria's dad got her the actual thing so it wasn't the lame-o pad that most people use.

I'm gonna go to a club and show off my new skills that I learned from DDR.

11:12pm: GAH I'm having the worst day ever.

1. I thought I was gonna do some sewing with Ashlee
2. I thought I was gonna see Sean.

but no "chores, and cleaning room" AND FRICKIN STUPID GAS BEING SO FRICKIN HIGHLY PRICED.



I absolutly HATE it when my plans get canceled. When things like this happen I HONESTLY feel that I don't have any friends and that the friends I do have don't want to hang out with me. :/ I'm so frickin stupid when little things happen. I wish I wasn't retarded and that I could just not get so dang upset about that kind of stuff.


The bright(I guess) side is that I'm gonna taper(sp?) my pants and alter my shirts tomorrow with Ashlee and have Top Ramen, Pork Rinds(I know that's not how you spell it, but I don't know the real way to), and other random stuff. After that I'm gonna go to the Gustine/Newman game with Bria. Then on Saturday I'm gonna see Sean and go to KK w/ Ashlee and him.

haha I was gonna use this thing that Ashlee's cousin Vanessa says "Don't worry tomorrow, worry about today." but I realised that doesn't really work in my situation. Geeeeeeeeeez

Well, seriously if ANYONE wants to hang out just go to my MySpace and message me and I'll give you my celly #. If you don't live in Newman you'll kinda sorta have to pick me up and give me a place to stay the night.


Well, whoever read this all...thank you. It shows you care....eventhough you aren't telling me that you read it, unless you comment. *rolls eyes @ myself*

10:07pm: Good News
I didn't have to get a shot in the butt. However, I have to take 3 medications. 1 is a cream thing that I have to apply twice daily. The other is one that I have to take once, 3 times a day. The other I have to take 2 once a day.

That's gonna be hard to remember.


So uh...yay for me.

9:28am: Geeez It's last year all over again.
I have this HUGE spider bite on my wrist. I noticed it yesterday morning...but it wasn't that big. As the day progressed it got bigger and bigger and now it's going up my hand a little and is taking up most of my wrist. Only about 1 1/2 inches is untouched...after that my whole wrist will be infected. :/ I hope I don't have to get my hand cut off (I'm being totally serious).

The doctor's office opened @ 9 but the ppl. said that he doesn't get there until 10:30 and even if I was there @ 10:30, I might not get in till 11:30. :/ I hope I get in ASAP cause I wanna see my Seanie baby.


=( I'm most likely gonna have to get a shot in my butt cause that's what happened last year b4 school started...now that I think of it, it was on the same arm too.

*sighs*

11:52pm: Be very jealous.
Sean wasn't able to go with me to feed the homeless today because he was really sick right....but I went to his house b4 anyway. Anywho, when I got back Sean's dad was supposed to drive me home....so when I got back to the church I called his house at about 9:40 and he said that his dad was too tired to drive. Soooo I called my mom to pick me up. (keep in mind that she takes FOREVER to leave the house) So she didn't pick me up till about 10:25. I went to Sean's house to drop off his hoodie and pick up my phone. He came out saying "Where were you? I thought you died or got in an accident. I thought you were alone @ the church....etc." I was fine, inside of the church, with a few ppl. there w/ me. But yea, he started crying a little *smiles* and he just held me forever.


All you chicks who have boyfriends should kick your guys in the testies for them not being as awesome as Sean, but what good would it do because NO ONE could be as sweet, awesome, caring, and sexy as him.

6:47pm: WHAT WOULD YOU DO iF:
" I said I liked you:
" I kissed you:
" I lived next door to you:
" I started smoking:
" I stole something:
" I was hospitalized:
" I ran away from home:

WHAT DO YOU THiNK ABOUT MY:
" Personality:
" Eyes:
" Face:
" Hair:
" Clothes:

RANDOM QUESTiONZ:
Who are you?
Are we friends?
When and how did we meet?
What do you think of me?
what's the fondest memory you have of me?
How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
Do you love me?
Have I ever hurt you?
Would you hug me?
Would you kiss me?
Would you do me?
Are we close?
On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
How long have you known me?
Describe me in one word.
What was your first impression?
Do you still think that way about me now?
What do you think my weakness is?
Do you think I'll get married (if yes to who)?
What reminds you of me?
What's something you would change about me?
How well do you know me?
Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
If so tell me now?
Do you think I would kill someone?
Are you going to put this on your my space bulletin and see what I say about you?

10:44am: Friday night was awesome.
I went to a show in Oakdale that was in the middle of nowhere, in a barn. It was all Halloweenified. I met Brittney. I was nervous to talk to her cause she's all cool and pretty, so it took a lot of encouragement from Sean for me to go over there. She was REALLY nice. I thought she was gonna be all "meh, I'm cooler than you, so like DON'T talk to me." but she hecka wasn't. She gave me 2 hugs. *smiles*

I wish I had pics of the show for you guys. :/

5:04pm: I smell like chocolate chip cookies cause I've been baking them all day for Sean. The 1st batch had too much salt in them and they were like hugungous...yea the whole salt thing...I was only supposed to put in 1 tsp, but I put in 1 tbsp. Not good. lol Hope Sean likes the better batch.

8:48pm: Well.
I think I've decided to update my lj eventhough it isn't sexy. So umm... What're you gonna be for Halloween? I'm gonna be a Pirate. I'm excited to go to school and the show in it. My art teacher was like "You should come to the costume contest after school that day." and I was like "uuuuuh, ppl. probably have better costumes than mine...I just bought it, didn't make it or anything." So I dunno, I might go to it and see if I can win anything. I'm debating on whether or not to wear fishnets. :/ Any suggestions?

11:25pm: This lj stuff is complicated.
When I made my MySpace all cool it was easy and simple. With lj it's so frickin complicated. Meh, if anyone is reading this and cares to help me learn how to modify and tweak my journal, go to my myspace and message me.

I was going to say something else...but I forgot.

oh yea. Once I get my journal the way I want it...it will be friends only.

3:34pm: Yeah. This is a test.



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